Today am thinking about...

Oct. 26, 2021

Especially over the last few years, in particular, I have evolved into the basically well-balanced person writing this.

Unfortunately, I went through many "dark periods" throughout my earlier life; and overloaded many of my relationships. I have lived my healing process, within my daily life. What you see, is pretty much what you get.

I do hope that some people were encouraged by my vulnerability; but I know I scared many people away. For this I am truly sorry - all I can say, is that I was real, though injured.

I have reconnected with some people, and others may never feel comfortable enough to reconnect - I hold no contempt for anyone. I am secure in my relationship with myself - which is what was REALLY lacking, in my past.

You know the phrase, "If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it was meant to be." (Or basic paraphrase.) This is really all I can do.

I am still a work in process - how 'bout you??!

Have a good day, and be safe... #2021LATE ***beamererin.com*** #JusTSpInnIngPlaTes beamererin@yahoo.com 

Oct. 19, 2021

...it is a limited source of energy.

Don't get me wrong - it can motivate people to do GREAT things - look at some of the greatest miscreants and rapscallions (Google it, like I did), in history.

They are the antithesis of what I want my legacy to be - all because they let their pain determine their fate.

I do not live in a fairy tale, by any means; but I watched my Father "lead his life by his pain", for 51 of his 86 years; and I do NOT want to be remembered for my pain.

I, myself, lived my pain for the first 30+ years of my 60 years; but I knew, deep down, it was not for me. Kind of like I figured out in the "mandatory 72 hours" - "I don't know what I need; but this is NOT it!!!"

I have had "dark periods", as recently as the last five years; but I have utilized them to build my strengths, and overcome my weaknesses.

It can be a daily struggle, at times - my pain is never out of range of my "life rear-view mirror" - but it is the choices I make, that keep it there.

Have a good day, and be safe... #2021LATE ***beamererin.com*** #JusTSpInnIngPlaTes beamererin@yahoo.com 

Oct. 12, 2021

Have you ever gotten mad about something, and somebody says, "What's the big deal??!"

Before you just laugh, and blow it off, I encourage you to take a second, and ask yourself, "Why DID it matter? Is it something I NEED to investigate, further; or CAN I let it go?"

Even if it IS a fleeting feeling; your feelings ARE valid. I know I used to let a lot more go than I should have; and overreacted on other things. Now, I have learned to "pick my battles".

Remember, it's also okay to "shelve" the processing until another time - which takes practice to not react in the moment.

Just remember: life IS a process, and sometimes, the process does suck. Keep moving...and figure out WHY it matters...

Have a good day, and be safe... #2021LATE ***beamererin.com*** #JusTSpInnIngPlaTes beamererin@yahoo.com 

Oct. 5, 2021

There is SUCH a "running dialogue" of LOUD, conflicting voices in our world, today, that it is hard to figure out what YOU feel...about anything.

While our freedom to express our feelings is valid; using people's feelings to control and manipulate them is abusive, don't you think?

God forbid you express your feelings about something - nine times out of ten, SOMEONE will tell you that you are wrong in the way you think.

That's where the problem comes in - people talk AT others, instead of talking TO them. Try and break that habit.

Be the change you want to see, and listen to the voices in your OWN head - NOT someone else's...😉😉😉 #alsoyourheart

Have a good day, and be safe... #2021LATE ***beamererin.com*** #JusTSpInnIngPlaTes beamererin@yahoo.com 

Sep. 28, 2021

Though they are used to reach people from the outer edges of the internet; they also serve a purpose.

Every hashtag I choose either goes with the theme of the month, or how I am feeling I need to convey hope to people - the variables of my hashtags are innumerable.

They are, however, NOT as random as they may seem to the naked eye.

Take #bethegardenforonce. This is for all those people that have been helping others so much in their "life gardens", that their own has become overgrown and full of weeds. It is time for them to be the garden, and let others help THEM, for a change.

I was talking to a friend, recently, and I mentioned it. She didn't understand what it meant, at first; and she hadn't really noticed it, in all the hashtags I use. When I explained it to her, she said she was going to do some research into it.

Always pay attention to the hashtags that people use - they may be a part of the story they are trying to tell...by what they're NOT saying...

Thank you, have a good day, and be safe... #2021LATE ***beamererin.com*** #JusTSpInnIngPlaTes beamererin@yahoo.com