Today am thinking about...

May. 21, 2020

In this time of Covid, feeling under attack
Feeling overwhelmed, yet feel taken aback
By the influx of info; what's true - what's not??!
Sensing the urgency - running both cold AND hot
Mask on/mask off โ€ daily battle begins
Until I get home - sense of "normal", again??!
Who knew, when year started, how odd spring would be??!
How much we'd be missing all those we can't see??!
Simple hugs, binding handshakes - things seemingly gone away
Wondering what "new recommendations" will be coming today??!
And yet, in the chaos - believe it, or not
Have been moments of peace, being randomly caught
I've been "handling things", though been bitchy, at times
And sometimes, felt "blocked", trying to write those lines
Of my blog posts - to encourage, to not feel so alone
That we're ALL going through it - try to see how we've grown
Making positives out of all the destruction we've seen
That for humanity, the possibility of that ugly slate wiped clean??!
I believe nothing is wasted - lessons always abound
I just hope, always do, that true peace WILL be found

Have a good day, and be safe... #2020seeclearly 

 

Apr. 28, 2020

That is how my life has gone - both physically AND mentally, over this last nearly two months of the pandemic!!!

Anyone else??!

I was downright cranky, the first three weeks - ask anyone that knows me. I have been physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. I KNOW I am not alone, in this.

I am not "coasting" through it, now, by any means; but I am "cranking" back (at times, out loud, sometimes, in my head), a lot less. 

Change has never been my strong suit - and this HAS definitely been a change, huh??! 

We will get through this - we shall persevere. It is what we do. 

Whatever our new "normal" becomes - we will make it. 

I do wish that everyone I came across, in my retail position, could know my heart; but, a lot of people handle change as well as I do...๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰. They react to the physical obstacle in front of them - and sometimes, that's me.

I do rebound, after situations that come up - step back, see it as it is (occasionally giggle, not gonna lie), and move on. 

Overall, people haven't been that bad - but the "memorable" ones always stand out, don't they? Human nature strikes, again!!! ๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿคจ

As always, I wish you a good day, and please be safe... #2020seeclearly 

Apr. 21, 2020

Often, I feel like a rock stuck to BOTTOM of the iceberg, wondering wth??!

Over the last few years, in particular, as I have shared in previous Blog Posts, I have been focusing on my Self-Care.

Often, I feel like I am NEVER going to get beyond where I am, in my life.

But, if I look at my life as an iceberg - the part that is underneath the water, hidden from view to most people, actually IS shrinking, and evolving.

The part exposed above the water is changing, ever so subtly. Again, only people that are paying attention, will really notice.

But - the most IMPORTANT part in all this - is the awareness that I HAVE, (hence, the phrase "Self-Care").

The only person that is responsible for taking care of you, is you. Isn't it time to take over your responsibility?

Have a good day, and be safe...#2020seeclearly 

Mar. 24, 2020

(Title inspired by Joelene Wolfe - Happiness Depends)

I do!!!

My Mentor, my adopted "Mom" Daryl, has taught me so many life-changing/affirming things, since we met after I "crashed" in 1992. She taught me about love, acceptance, and my faves - honesty, integrity, responsibility, commitment and truth!!!

Is there someone in YOUR life, that is passionate, and inspiring, and had a huge impact on on YOUR life??!

I would love to hear about them. At this time, in our lives AND history, it is SOO important to find ANY positive we can.

Please message me at my Facebook page, here or on my personal one; email me at beamererin@yahoo.com; I would LOVE to hear your thoughts on this, or ANY post.

Your feedback means so much!!!

Have a great day, and be safe... #2020seeclearly 

Mar. 17, 2020

March Madness, St Patrick's Day, Tuesday - even Election Day...these are things I know I have always taken for granted.

Well...now things are a little different, aren't they? We are in a pandemic - how are you "handling it"??!

I'm not talking about the physical preparations - btw, people hoarding things, is just a "fear of the unknown" reaction - NOBODY is DELIBERATELY trying to hurt anybody else. They just don't know WHAT to do - and in THEIR minds, hoarding behaviors make more sense than running in circles and screaming (which is probably kind of going on IN their minds).

And the people using humor - are just trying to get through this, also. NOBODY is deliberately trying to eviscerate anyone. We ALL need to remember, WE ARE ALL IN THIS, TOGETHER. (Just had a "High School Musical" moment, there!!!๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰)

How ARE you reacting? I usually have an "Autobon" type of thought process, on a normal day. These last few days, have been pretty active - I work retail, so have even been dreaming about work, a LOT.

I have lung issues, so there's that - AND allergies, on top of it all. (Btw, personally, I think this happening during peak allergy time, is grossly unfair - don't you agree??!๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰)

I'm putting all this out there, because I have made the choice to NOT panic - I'm not stupid, I take needed precautions; but I think panicking IS the WORST thing we can do.

We are definitely in a bumpy time, in the world - but, overall, we WILL persevere - it's what we do, as humans.

I just want to put out there, that if you need to talk, I am here. Message me at beamererin@yahoo.com - please put "I Need to Talk..." in the Subject line; or on Messenger - either my personal page, Connie R Jordan, or the JusT SpInnIng PlaTes... page. We WILL get through this.

As ALWAYS, have a good day, and be SAFE... #2020seeclearly