Mar. 2, 2015

Responsibility...

Tackling another on of the "biggies". This one took me a REALLY long time to grasp - I wasn't required to be responsible for my own actions until I met some people that helped me require it for them, AND myself. I'm not really complaining about my life before I was 30, it was great for the most part. I just wasn't "living life to the fullest." Flying by the seat of your pants" is great for awhile - but when you crash, you hit HARD!!! I crashed, & kinda burned - but let me tell you - it's been one heck of a climb. I am by no means done yet, though. I'm sharing all these tidbits of wisdom as we strive for them, together. I AM an expert on the climb, & the rock slide, & the climb, & the avalanche, & the climb, & the plateau; did I mention the climb??! Ha, ha!!! Being responsible is so much more than being places on time, etc. You have to LIVE it - it's a part of your TOTAL being; & it DOES begin with yourself. It's in the way you see yourself in the mirror - ie-"Is what I see what I really want to project?" I'm not talking just hair & makeup, & clothes - it's in your attitude. It's being true to yourself; not necessarily how you feel about yourself on any given day - that can fluctuate too much. It's also in your body language - if you're having a bad day, it IS ok. Just don't stay there. Acknowlege it to your safe circle of friends. Journal about it if you get a chance. THAT is being responsible - being honest with others, & yourself. You obviously shouldn't share it with the public, if that's what your job is; or any other "unsafe" people. That's another aspect - sharing yourself "appropriately" - based on your own personal "how-it-makes-you-fee-inside" standards. Being responsible isn't necessarily just "following the rules", either. I get caught up in this one, alot. I'm in NO WAY condoning you DO NOT follow the rules. It's knowing when you just have to, & suck it up. Like at your job - sometimes you're going to HAVE to. If you can't, or won't compromise yourself - maybe it's time to move on. Yet ANOTHER aspect of being responsible - unless you started the company, you came in on THEIR terms - they have all the power. It sucks - this was, yet, ANOTHER hard lesson for me. I'm proud to say I have been at my current job 10 & 1/2 years - the longest job of my life. I do have my moments - I push the envelope - & been darn lucky, a couple of times. But, what you see is what you get with me - & when I screw up, I'm usually the first one to tell you about it. I live life in "damage control", ALOT!!! A MAJOR part of being responsible - did I mention "the climb"??! What sort of responsibility "battles" have you had, or still have? Remember, "the struggle is real"...have a good day, & be safe...