Apr. 12, 2015

Living Life in "Damage Control"...

Do you ever have seasons in your life where you feel like all you do is apologize for your actions? It doesn't happen often; but when I do it - I DO NOT play around. as a recovering rage-aholic, my mouth still gets away from me, sometimes. All you can do is apologize, & wait it out. At times, I don't "wait it out" well, either. I still try to "fix it"; which is really just another accident waiting to happen. At my previous job, I would actually keep a piece of duct tape on my name badge to remind me to keep my mouth shut; & at current job, used to just grab a roll off the shelf & set it beside me. Now, I just think "duct tape" really loudly in my head. The worst part about it, however, is that immediate, empowering "feel good" - right before the bottom falls out, & you get that nauseating, "oh crap" feeling. It ALWAYS comes; & whether you're right or wrong - you have to take responsibility for it; & very rarely is it good timing. Then comes the "damage control". You don't want to just "suck up"; that only makes it worse - & if you cannot apologize from your heart, your best bet is to just keep your mouth shut. Truth, a lot of times, that's best for the moment. However, you do NOT want to hold on to the anger - it will consume you, & take longer for situation to be rectified. I know this has been a little rambly & random - but remember, that is the essence that is me...ha, ha!!! Have a good day, & be safe...