Jan. 5, 2019

2019...I Am Still Here...

As I look back over 2018, I see it as my "Year of the Gaping Wound". It IS closing, and healing, slowly.

I know I have lost Friends, and gained Friends. I am sorry, to the ones I lost; but thank you.

I have learned a LOT about myself, this year. Some good, some bad.
But, at the end of the year, I am still here; and THAT is the goal of self-care, right??!

I know I have confused a lot of people by some of my actions; I am sorry about that. BUT I AM STILL HERE!!!

I know I am still healing. Even I was surprised by many things. BUT I AM STILL HERE!!!

I have "flown by the seat of my pants" through SO many situations; have handled some well, and there were others, I just could not handle.

My Mother DID raise me to live without her; I just don't necessarily like it!!! BUT I AM STILL HERE!!!

I just keep wondering how bad this year would've been, had I NOT been so prepared for her to go - for God's sake, I sent her!!!

Just keep in mind, at the end of every traumatic second, minute, day, week, month, and year, if you are still here, that SCREAMS something - YOU ARE STILL HERE!!!

As we enter 2019, I wish each and every one of you a Happy New Year...and hopefully,  we can yell together in 360 days, I AM STILL HERE!!!

Have a good day, and be safe...