Today am thinking about...

Sep. 21, 2021

One thing I have learned, particularly over the last 4ish years, is the strong boundaries I have had to implement for my mental well-being; and they are solid. In doing this, however, I know I have pissed off, and hurt some people.

This was NEVER my intent - I am not cruel, by nature; but I had someone tell me as recently as last week, that my interaction in voicing a boundary left them feeling I was rude. All because I deferred a question they were attempting to ask me, while on my break, to another person, and the situation was resolved quickly.

I know some people may perceive me as rude, but that is not my intent; and I also know that is their issue. Remember other's perception of you is none of your business.

I think that has been hardest for me to learn, as I was formerly a "black-belt people-pleaser". God forbid SOMEBODY didn't like me. I blended in well. Now, not so good.

Hence, the title. I would much rather be living the life I am living now, than the one back then.

Now, this doesn't mean I NEVER get the urge to "people-please"; I just recover from it, faster.

JusT "honestly" leaving them in my wake...

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Sep. 14, 2021

People think I am "anti-meds" for things like depression, etc; but I am more "limited meds", instead.

I personally believe people are over-medicated, these days - fewer and fewer people are facing their issues without ANY medication; if they actually deal with anything, at all. I believe it should be a healthy balance.

While I admit, there were, and still are, times I may "self-medicate" with food, etc; the difference between now and earlier in my healing process, is the awareness of my feelings and choices, and how they affect every aspect of my life.

I take responsibility for my own healing - yes, under the umbrella of my Counselor; and though I AM proud to have done it without medication, I judge nobody.

The point is the title - are you, or have you worked through your issues? Honestly, if you think you've never had any - ask yourself why you do the things, and make the choices, you do.

You don't have to live in your past, just be realistic, and admit you were affected by it.

This is part of the goal with my Daily Journal Prompts; and at times, my very existence - to get people thinking.

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Sep. 7, 2021

One of my BIGGEST is my failure to follow-through.

In my defense, this brain just comes up with so many great ideas, at times; and my heart gets involved - and then my mouth gets all involved, and speaks what my heart wants to do...

The fact I have NO ability to do said task, or goal, is irrelevant.

This is why, when we reached 200,000 visits to the website, this past week...(THANK YOU, ALL, BTW!!!)...I did not allow the thought of a drawing, or gift bag, or anything. I still have Heather's prize from my LAST giveaway (in March, 2021)!!!

Sometimes, all I can do is rest in the fact that I know I am following my heart/gut, and keep reaching for my goals; and doing what I need to to on a daily basis - at times, by the hour.

I ask all of you that know me, personally especially, to be patient with me and know my heart; and know that regardless, I AM committed to you.

What "Character Flaws" are you aware of, in you??!

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Aug. 31, 2021

One of the biggest struggles in my life is remembering that other people's feelings about different situations are THEIR feelings, and do NOT invalidate my feelings about the same situation, and that is ok.

It is in no way an attack on anyone - just how they feel. There is no right or wrong, in the moment they express them.

I think this is where we, as a society, have gotten off-track - trying to "keep everyone happy".

While expressing your feelings is not wrong -  using your feelings to try to control a person, or situation is where the problem could arise.

The flip-side, is making yourself crazy trying people-please; or even worse, trying to change their mind, in that moment.

Somewhere, deep in the middle, is the delicate, at times elusive, balance.

Take a beat, the next time someone expresses an opinion you disagree with. Does their opinion affect you in any way, shape, or form? Maybe, just acknowledge they spoke, and move on. This is my life-goal...perhaps WE can be the change we want to see?

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Aug. 24, 2021

Our 6th Annual "Artisans Against Domestic Violence" Art Exhibit is this Saturday, August 28, 2021 - 4:30-8:30pm, at the East Palestine Country Club. I wrote this "theme inspired" poem - but chose not to submit. I still wanted to share it with you.
Come on out to the Exhibit, if you're local. If you can't - check out our website, via our BLOG LINK:
http://www.ozerministriesinc.com/421278968, for more information about Domestic Violence Awareness.

Here is my, hopefully, thought-provoking poem:


Oh, the shoes that the people wear

Trying to just fit in; having perfect hair

All the hoops that are jumped
Barely able to get by

Many just give up, as they lay down to die

Now, that doesn't happen to everyone

Some people fight it, til their life is done

Taken away by someone, "in their right"

Their relationship goals
To have a partner to fight

With, and dominate - this isn't the way

It is supposed to be, on the day that you say

"I do." "I'm committed." "We shall never part."

But they messily rip out, and stomp
On the heart

Of the one that they "Love"!!!
"No else loves you more!!!"

"No one else will have you!!!"
"DON'T you walk out that door!!!"

But some do, and that
Is THE most dangerous time

Because,
The one that is left behind

Grows angrier, less rational
Fear and anger take over

That their secret will be known
So they stalk them, and hover

Staying just out of sight
Til that moment presents

And they come out, and fight
Growing more and more tense

Often to the death,
Of all involved

They feel that this "problem"
Cannot be resolved

So they take drastic measures
To make sure THEY don't lose

And if the children survive
They just pick up those shoes

And keep on walking
Perpetuate, that cycle of abuse

Which, at times, I am sure
Feels even more like a noose

Not a way to live
Need to break that "Curse"

But until they realize, that
It's more than just "words"

That true healing CAN come
It is NOT the easy route

You must fight EVERY DAY
And keep sharing what you're about

You're a Survivor, and know
That you deserve more

No more walking on eggshells
And being told you're a whore

So until more can stand up
And take back their lives

We stand in that gap
And daily we strive

To spread the Awareness
That this isn't the path

That they have to walk on
Til thru this nightmare they pass

We are here for you
And will be, unto the end

When you can stand,
And YOUR hand, will extend

To help the ones rising
Up behind you, to heal

And know that "love" is not
Just a weapon to "yield"

Keep walking, designing
The shoes that YOU wear

So Domestic Violence is NO LONGER
The burden YOU bear...

Connie R Jordan...
Completed 101020
Based on AADV Art Exhibit 2021 theme, #walkinTHEIRshoes

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