Latest Original Poems

(Written from the perspective of my nephew, Austin, that took his own life on 122521... 😔😔😔)

...the one that caused her to go 

...the guilt I suffered, now all will know 

...truth, or not, I had to bear the shame 

...of an introduction, that eventually became 

...the cause of a loss NO ONE should have to bear 

...and my still being here just doesn't seem fair 

...so to balance, will do what "needs to be done" 

...all it will take are some drinks and a gun 

...and MY pain will be over - and together,  again

...I will live on, forever, with my "best friend" 

I. Am. No more...

(CRJ... 011222)

Oh, the shoes that the people wear

Trying to just fit in; having perfect hair

All the hoops that are jumped
Barely able to get by

Many just give up, as they lay down to die

Now, that doesn't happen to everyone

Some people fight it, til their life is done

Taken away by someone, "in their right"

Their relationship goals
To have a partner to fight

With, and dominate - this isn't the way

It is supposed to be, on the day that you say

"I do." "I'm committed." "We shall never part."

But they messily rip out, and stomp
On the heart

Of the one that they "Love"!!!
"No else loves you more!!!"

"No one else will have you!!!"
"DON'T you walk out that door!!!"

But some do, and that
Is THE most dangerous time

Because,
The one that is left behind

Grows angrier, less rational
Fear and anger take over

That their secret will be known
So they stalk them, and hover

Staying just out of sight
Til that moment presents

And they come out, and fight
Growing more and more tense

Often to the death,
Of all involved

They feel that this "problem"
Cannot be resolved

So they take drastic measures
To make sure THEY don't lose

And if the children survive
They just pick up those shoes

And keep on walking
Perpetuate, that cycle of abuse

Which, at times, I am sure
Feels even more like a noose

Not a way to live
Need to break that "Curse"

But until they realize, that
It's more than just "words"

That true healing CAN come
It is NOT the easy route

You must fight EVERY DAY
And keep sharing what you're about

You're a Survivor, and know
That you deserve more

No more walking on eggshells
And being told you're a whore

So until more can stand up
And take back their lives

We stand in that gap
And daily we strive

To spread the Awareness
That this isn't the path

That they have to walk on
Til thru this nightmare they pass

We are here for you
And will be, unto the end

When you can stand,
And YOUR hand, will extend

To help the ones rising
Up behind you, to heal

And know that "love" is not
Just a weapon to "yield"

Keep walking, designing
The shoes that YOU wear

So Domestic Violence is NO LONGER
The burden YOU bear...

Connie R Jordan...
Completed 101020
Based on AADV Art Exhibit 2021 theme, #walkinTHEIRshoes BLOG LINK:
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The Woulda, Coulda's... 021921

What if I had?
What if we could?
Would it be bad?
Or could it be good?
Well, what if we tried?
But, what if they knew?
Would they think "fake"?
Or would they know "true"?


- The woulda, coulda's, and shoulda's of life
Keep us from even trying...
While in the meantime, the struggles and strife...
And we got people dyin'??!

What if we stop -
The giving of pain?
And we just start -
Up the loving, again?
We're all the same -
Why can't we just see??!
And let each one live -
As they're meant to be??!

-MORE woulda, coulda's, and shoulda's of life
Let's learn to live together!!!
And if we ALL try, the changes will come
And things will just get better!!!

Well, what if I had?
What if we could?
Would it be bad?
Or could it be good?
We're all the same -
Why can't we just see??!
And let each one live -
As they're meant to be??!

-MORE woulda, coulda's, and shoulda's of life
Let's learn to live together!!!
And if we ALL try, the changes will come
And things will just get better!!!

What if I had...

CRJ... (completed 031421)

Have a good day, and be safe... #2021LATE beamererin.com #JusTSpInnIngPlaTes beamererin@yahoo.com 

The "lights", and the "action"
Are all "stalled out", now
But they're trying to "turn over"
Without "curtain" or "bow"

We're all doing what we can
To get through all of this
With not even "high fives"
Or a hug or a kiss

But, we cannot lose connection
'Cause "the show must go on"
Until this is over

We must await the new dawn

When the lights WILL come back on
And that engine WILL start
With the true connections re-tying
The strings, heart to heart

We just have to keep going
This battle CANNOT be lost!!!
And hold on to each other
At whatever the cost

Know that nothing is forever
If learning nothing else, in life
And the times that we struggle
With the toiling and strife

That the dawn ALWAYS comes
After the darkest of the night
And we WILL get through this
If we just hold on tight

For even a pandemic
Cannot take away
The underlying spirit
Of knowing there's a new day

We WILL all get through this
Though some will pay the cost
And we must carry on
To represent those lives lost

Though it seems such a waste
There is purpose in all
But we may never know it
Until we answer that call

That our life is complete
I've learned it's sooner, for some
Though the valiant blow
Is NEVER easy, when it comes

Our purpose is to go on
Not let their loss be in vain
For the connection can't be broken
Even if we don't see them, again

In this life on this Earth
I believe some day, we will
Be reunited with loved ones
And forever connected, still

This gives me hope
Though our future seems quite bleak
And so many unseen answers
To the questions, we seek

My Mother taught me that Faith
Is what gets us through all
And it will get me through this
Even if I get "That Call..."

(Connie R Jordan... completed 120220)

My life as a play may seem boring and dull

But as I live my life, I am constantly full

Of the amazing sights that I see every day

See, not everyone notices stuff in the same way

It's the finite little things that excite and amaze

The bigger stuff, often, gets lost in the haze

Of the struggles of life, that is meant to be full

With the ordinary that sets many in a catatonic lull

I choose to make special the life-daily drudge

While others seek "Special", afraid they will smudge

The perfection they think others see in their lives

While we're really ALL, often, just trying to survive

We need to SEE more of the Ordinary Life

I think it could help with some suffering and strife

That many struggle with and silently dread

And could cure many issues that are stuck in the heads

Anxiety, depression, these are all the results

It's not the Darkness, many claim, that comes from the Occult

Many are unable to live life as it is

Because ordinary life, means "having never lived"

In the eyes of the loud voices, that seem to be leading

And influencing, at times, irresponsibly - seemingly weeding

Seeking quantity, over quality - this is not a healthy way

Each has the choice to live THEIR life to THEIR fullest, every single day

So I choose to remain ordinary, and happy where I am

Until that day, when I am gone, and I no longer can...

Connie R Jordan... 110720
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