Sometimes, Late Nite...
Sometimes, late night is the worst time for me
More often, than not, that was when you would be
Home from your travels; that "Star"...so annoyed
But I took what I could get, had to fill that void
That was left in your absence, between there and work
(Though as I grew older, you not home was a perk.)
Which left me to do all my talking at night
As the dark room had a glow from across the street light
We would talk about the day, or a memory we'd share
I remember feeling loved, like you really did care
Though your eyes would grow weary, they had to be sore
Even when you fell asleep, and began to softly snore
I would just lay there, absorbing that moment of love
In the silence, so peaceful, afraid if I moved
That our time would be over, not sure when next would be
So I treasured that time, and I chose to see
Only good times, ignored bad times; throwing balance to wind
I know, now, that balance is key for me to find
The true me, inside; for my Kingdom to rule
To shine light on my Darkness; to re-learn basics, like school
For my new life, without you; to take both good AND bad
To hold my head high, face my my Happy AND Sad
So, I'll remember, and try to feel all those feelings as come
I know isn't easy; know the answer is not numb
But every feeling has purpose, for the then, and the now
Even though the pain may have me stuck, and wondering HOW?
To go on, persevere; to get on with my life
Though part of me will always be looking into that eye
That one, FINAL late night, when I told you #godance
I thank God, every day, that He gave me that chance
To give you that gift, to release you to go
Here, a month later, think I'm starting to know
What my life is to be, to do what I need to do
Leave my mark in this world, and NOT be just like you
To walk on MY path, wherever it may lead
To utilize the strength, that was passed on to me
Wherever I go, and to never forget
To remember whence I came, and in my resolve, set
Connie R Jordan... 062518-062818
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