JusT SpInnIng PlaTes...

Sep. 19, 2014

I have been sharing my thots - but here's a bit more about me. I've mentioned Beamer several times. He's going to be 13 on 9/11/14 - coincidence? NOT!!! He became my 40th b-day present, 2 days after, on October 15, 2001. He was between 4 & 6 weeks old, & had been abandoned in a box at an apartment complex in Akron, OH. My ex-roommate's friend found him & contacted her here in East Palestine, OH & she met her 1/2 way between & took him to a vet en-route, & stopped to see me at the convenient store where I was working. He was 2.2# - ALL I WANTED was a "puppy breath" kiss!!! Here we are, nearly 13 years later - puppy breath LONG gone. Have you caught on to his birthday & his name, yet??! He is how I dealt with 9/11/01. I found out, after naming him, that Todd Beamer's (the guy on Flight 93 that said, "Let's Roll") parents graduated from the same school I did (Sebring McKinley H.S.). I had the honor of meeting them in 2004 at an alumni banquet & gave them a pic of Beamer, & sent one for Todd's wife, Lisa (who is on my list of people I've yet to meet before I die). For every birthday & Christmas for the last 13 years, I've received some type of 9/11 Memorabilia. I also wrote a song called "Let's Roll..." & my friend recorded me singing it at the Crash Site, on video. For several years now, that video has been played at a Juvenile Attention Center 9/11 Memorial Service; & if I'm able, I attend with my 9/11 Memorabilia. Last year was the first year I felt "on" with my presentation. I just want people to know, the Heroes from Flight 93, & EVERYONE in the planes, the WTC Toweres, & the Pentagon were people just going about their day. 9/11/01 is also when I started my tag - "have a good day & be safe...". Sometimes, that's all we can do...I tell all my customers that, & just about everyone else, really...

Sep. 19, 2014

Sometimes in life, it just feels like your just there - present. Things aren't necessarily bad or good - just there. In my life, this is actually great progress!!! Used to pretty much only have highs or lows. there wasn't a whole lot of "middle ground". Middle ground can feel a little..almost scary, at times. As we all know, change, again, is also not a "strong suit". All you can really do is plug on through. I'm not complaining, by the way - just observing. In the near 23 years have been ACTIVELY on healing journey, am actually excited to be here!!! Example - porch time with Beamer - I know I have other things to do in the house; but expecially now, EVERY moment spent with him is precious. Plus, I am working on the blog, too, so we BOTH win!!! Present!!! Have a good day & be safe...

Sep. 19, 2014

It's hard, sometimes, to remember there are a MINIMUM of 2 sides to every story. When you factor in truth, & the incredibly creative fiction a mind can come up with, a situation can get blown out of proportion so fast it's NOT funny!!! Sometimes, the best thing a person can do is step back, & just shut up, & wait for the smoke to clear. It's hard to do; but if you don't, it can cause bigger problems than the ones that WEREN'T there to begin with!!! Have a good day & be safe...

Sep. 19, 2014

Was thinking about the things I have today, & even though am frustrated by what I DON'T have, I AM truly grateful for what I DO have. My needs truly ARE met...even in the lean times. I have a (non-leaking!!!) roof over my head, & food on the table. My needs are simple - dogfood, food, shelter, & clothing...in THAT order. If I can keep this in my head, my life is ALOT easier!!! Take a moment & REALLY think about your needs vs your wants...are YOU really taken care of? Have a good day & be safe...

Sep. 19, 2014

As I look over the last week, the main word that goes through my mind is thankful. I won't bore you with all the details, but on Tuesday my brake cylinder blew & if not for guardian angels around my car, & angels of mercy (John & Samantha), my day would have ended a lot differently. I have friends/family that love me unconditionally, & a job I DO love, despite the nightmares. I REALLY shouldn't complain - but I have that "human thing" going on. I appreciate all the support on the blog; & I will continue the reworking & fine-tuning amidst the "essence that is me". Again, please bear with me - I didn't post for a couple days because I was trying to change too much, too fast; & ended up with writer's block. I know "baby steps" are required for some things; but again, not my strong suit - lol!!! I have a tendency to "go big, or go home"...remember the Balance I spoke of before? Still trying to get it. I really want this blog to work - it's become a passion. Welcome to this episode of "Connect the Passions"...have a good day & be safe...