Sep. 19, 2014

Reality in ALL Things... (Originally posted 8/5/14)

My last blog was July 12 - I apologize for being away for so long. In that blog, I shared about losing a close friend (7-11-14). On July 18, I had to say goodbye to my best friend of 12 years, 9 months & 3 days - my dog/son/first born, Beamer. The day after my friends' funeral, he gave me "the look". He had been on pain management since last November, & had been planning to put him down October 15, 2014 - 13 years to the day I got him. Unless he let me know before, which he did. That day was THE worst day of my life!!! People have asked me if I was with him when they "did it" - of course!!! I AM a realist. Sometimes reality DOES suck; but I would rather face it head-on, than duck & miss anything!!! I spent the first 30ish years of my life thinking I couldn't "handle" so many things, because I was NOT raised to handle them. the flip-side to that, is because of some of the things I DID handle (in spite of "familial bubble wrap"); I am a MUCH stronger person. Like when I've spoken in the past about "making lemonade". Life affects you - you can't avoid it - if you do, you're NOT REALLY living. I think that would suck even more!!! Have a good day & be safe...